People Say I'm Crazy (2004)

Synopsis: Welcome to my mind. My name is John Cadigan, and I'm an artist with schizophrenia. People Say I'm Crazy is my documentary about the world inside my head. It's a chaotic world filled with... Welcome to my mind. My name is John Cadigan, and I'm an artist with schizophrenia. People Say I'm Crazy is my documentary about the world inside my head. It's a chaotic world filled with paranoia, creativity, fear and desire. A world in which I'm struggling every day, trying to know what is real and what is not. Ten years ago, after my first psychotic break in college, I started filming myself because I wanted the world to know what it's like to live with labels such as "psychotic," "schizophrenic" and "severely disabled." I filmed everything—from being catatonic to when I had ECT (electro-convulsive therapy). Finally a new generation of medications came on the market, and they actually began to work. My life became bearable, sometimes even enjoyable. I started to create again—drawing, carving and making woodcuts. If my family and doctor hadn't given me such intense support, I'd probably be dead by now. -- © Palo Alto Pictures [More]