This is the story of British conflict photographer Jason P. Howe taking on the British MOD and the publics right to know. What is the first thing you think of when the guy behind you gets his legs blown off? What time is it when it hits 'bomb o'clock'? How do you fall for a woman, who then reveals herself as an assassin? Jason survived 12 years on the frontline of four wars -- Columbia, Iraq, Lebanon and Afghanistan -- capturing images of humanity at war, its suffering, and cultures in disarray. His journey exposes the physical and emotional impact of love, loss, suffering, and disillusionment. Especially the bravery it takes to survive the world at war, and what it takes to get the images published for the world to see. An insight on how passion led to the downward spiral of disillusionment in this crazy tale of survival and change. Jason went down the rabbit hole, and we don't know if he has fully come back out.